VeryVeryVary

Okay, so it's been a little bit more than a week since my last "hopefully I'll post every week" post. But the thing is, I haven't actually been slacking off. I told my husband last week that I feel like "the Jake Suit" - referring to the thing in Adventure Time where Finn can wear Jake's stretchy body as an indestructible suit of armor. Jake still tires and feels all the effects from how Finn is treating his body, but Finn with his infinite energy can just keep going forever. So whatever little monster is driving me has her hand in a few different pots right now. There's the original plan I had to clean up my house and stick to a cleaning schedule, and while that's not been abandoned, per se, about halfway through, I decided to do a major rearrange of our home. Where we'd been using the larger of the two bedrooms as a den, the little one and I decided that it was time for her to have her own private space, so now I'm making the s...

Wow it's been a long time. I've been through a lot so far this year, and I'm sorry for allll those times when I didn't update you. Basically in January and February anxiety was killing me. I went to the ER twice within a couple months and they didn't really seem to think anything weird about that. After the second time, I got myself set up with a new therapist who I've been seeing about twice a month since then. My PCP also got me started on a low dose of an SSRI which helped almost immediately. We also moved house in January, during a snowstorm which was cool. We're appreciating the extra space in the new place, but more space to live also means more space to clean, which isn't something I'm good at when I'm really struggling with my mental health. I was excited for school to end and to get to hang out with my daughter all summer, but just a week or two into her summer I got some news about my health and started feeling sick all the time...